Romano x reader- To see the sun, I'd give anything

Romano woke up from an uneasy night. The nightmares and regret that hunted his sleep didn't let him rest at all. Rivulets of cold sweat were running down his forehead and spine, as his breathing had become heavy. Another sleepless night for his broken heart. Another pointless day on his calendar. The male sat straight up in his bed. His eyes involuntary turned to see the other side of the shared mattress.

Empty.

(y/n) had already moved away, after a raucous fight they had. Romano (repetitive) accused the (y/nationality) female for liking his brother, Feli, more than him. A statement that had no hint of truth, of course...

 "We're just friends!!" both his brother and his girlfriend kept on stressing.

"(y/n) is like mia sorella (my sister), Fratello (brother)!"

"Romano... I love you. For God's sake, you're my boyfriend, not Feli!!"

 
However the older Italian insisted on his anger and let jealousy and envy cloud his troubled mind every single time.

 " I'm leaving! Since I'm the fucking third wheel here... I don't want to see you ever again. You heard me? Never!"

"Now I have to pay for my mistake..." he desperately thought as he threw the covers off his tired body.He stood up and scanned the uncharacteristically quiet bedroom with his eyes. The only thing she left behind was a picture of her, smiling and holding her favorite flower. Romano himself had shot this photo and counted as a special one. At the sight of her emotional gaze, Romano felt a gang of tears gather and clenched his teeth to prevent any screams coming out of his mouth. He rashly turned his head and ran downstairs.

 His body collapsed on the couch, leaving a sigh. His amber orbs pierced the white ceiling with a vacant look, as memories of his beloved (y/n) appeared uninvited in his meditations. 

Romano felt the void wolfing down his soul.

She has done away with him, for sure.

Sha has stolen his heart and his senses.

Her absence has turned the light into darkness, the day into night, his smile into a bitterful grin.

The moment he pushed his lover away he felt betrayed and full of despise. It was only later that he realized the magnitude of his mistake.

 "Why did I do this?" he mentally hissed while the tears finally started streaming down his face.

'Is this the end? This is how our story ends?" he silently wondered.

He raised his head only to be met with his reflection in the mirror that decorated the living room.

His image looked back at him with puffy eyes and a questioning look.

 "Should I call her first?" was the question that kept torturing him. He begged his reflection for an answer. His heart said yes in contrast to his arrogance that said no.

Without even noticing, he grabbed his phone and delayed her number. He placed the phone in his ear and waited patiently for her to answer.

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"The number you have dialed has been changed"

 He angrily tossed the device on the coffee table in front of him and buried his face in his large palms. Loud sobs came out and pain writhed in his chest from the lack of air. With shaking hands, he lit up a cigarette …

“What should I do now?”

Romano stayed silent for a while, trying to collect his thoughts and the million pieces he had been torn apart. But even the silence was insufferable for his broken soul, so he chose a random track from phone and let it fill the intense air with its notes…

“It feels like I'm a lone survivor
Forgotten in a dark and deadly world
and on my own, I walk alone
To see the sun again I'd give anything”

"but life demands a final chapter

A story that we all must leave behind,

It do or die and this is mine

The anthem of a b-"

He had made up his mind. He had derived the answer he was looking for...

“I’m coming for you, (y/n)…”

 He grasped his keys before stepping outside and he unlocked his car.

~~~~~~~~~~Time skip!~~~~~~~~~

Romano had just reached his destination and now he was standing in front of her door. He took a deep breath and knocked. A few moments passed until the wooden door cracked open.

“Oh… It’s you…” Eliza, (y/n)’s roommate, unsurprised, greeted.

“Is (y/n) here?” he shyly asked

“Yeah…”

“Well… Can I talk to her?”

“I don’t think she wants to speak to you, right now…” she crossed her arms in front of her chest. Eliza observed him intensively before deciding to let him in or not.

“You love her that much, don’t you?” she sadly stated.

Romano nodded in reassurance.

The Hungarian stepped aside and gesture him to come in.

“She’s upstairs… In the rooftop…”

With no delay, he quickly climbed the stairs and in no time he was face to face with another door.

“It now or never…”

He slowly pushes the door and takes a tentative step.

The night sky was colored with an inky black and only the moon gave its light to the peaceful town.  Under siege by the stars, the moonlight seemed to lighten the night bringing forth stars that shone and hung in the blackness, like tiny decorations.

“(y/n)?” he called, his voice full of anticipation.

Said female, turned her back to look behind her.

“Romano!’’  her red eyes momentarily sparkled when she met his gaze. However, the hopefull sparkle rapidly faded away and it was replaced by a cold glare.

“What are you doing here?” she questioned with no remnants of her previous sweetness.

“I came here… to apologize… for my mistake” he stuttered, feeling shivers running down his spine.“I’m sorry that I mad-“

“I don’t want to hear your apology.” She interrupted him.

Romano remained silent. He was too astonished to say anything. Too hurt to continue. Only one word was spelled by his mouth.

“Why?”

“It’s always the same… Even though you apologize, you never keep your word. I’m tired of your jealousy, Romano.  No matter how hard I try to please you, to show that I only love you and no one else, you never recognize it. I.. I can’t live like this anymore. “

She was right. Romano didn’t deserve such a kind treatment from her. He had been very imposing and unfair to her. But he couldn’t help but wanting her to be with him.

“I’ll change (y/n). “ he sincerely promised “ For you.  because… Ti amo (I love you) and I can live without you. I can't imagine my life without you. Sole mio (my sun) ti amo…”

The girl bit her lip bottom lip uneasily and lowered her head.

“Please, tell me that you hate me.” She supplicated him.

“What?”

“Tell me that you hate me.”  She repeated crying.

Romano approached and hugged her slimmer frame.

“I can’t say such a lie.” he wiped one of her tears away.

She tightened her hold in his clothes. (y/n) collapsed on her knees without letting him go, forcing him to kneel as well.

“Tell it, please…  so when you leave through that door, my heart won’t hurt that much.”

He lifted her jaw and kissed her lips, since words couldn’t describe his feelings. He wanted to ease the pain he had caused her.  To vanish all the doubts and ominous clouds from their relationship with a mere touch. He caressed her cheek and smiled.

“I’ll never leave you (y/n)…. And I hope I won’t be that much of a bastardo to make you leave me. I'll change. Io prommeto (I promise). I’m sorry.”

They stayed there, apologizing and kissing their bitter away, until the sun gracefully rose up. A new day had begun. A new bright, full of light day.

In the end, Romano did manage to see the sun again…